This view is exactly what I see when I look up while sitting in my back patio. Just a sliver of sky between my building and a brick wall, interrupted by a loose power line. In NYC I am spoiled for having this, and even pay quite a price for it. Funny, in a way. I really do appreciate it though, and after a long day of work today I cracked open a beer and sat back here for a bit. Looking up at my sliver made me think of the rest of the world, and I couldn't help but think about how much I haven't seen of it. Luckily I hope to have about two-thirds of my life left to see more.Going back a step, yes...I said work. After 10 months of unemployment I got a job in print photo production...and as many of you are fully aware, have had quite a time trying to adjust. There have been meltdowns, panic attacks...I am self-proclaimed stressorexic, if you will. I have planned escapes from said job and the city, as I often tend to do when faced with big change. I think it's in my nature to constantly think of the "what if" and ponder what else I could or maybe should be doing. And I may in fact leave, and truly feel in my heart that I should step back from city-life for awhile. However, me knowing myself knows that will still require a ton of planning. I wish I were more of a risk-taker. I wouldn't do it to run away from my problems, and I want to stress that. I'm always curious about experiencing other places, and I'm the only one who ends up preventing it from happening. I guess maybe that's the opposite of running from one's problems. Maybe I just create my own conflicts by staying in one place for too long.
A friend recently asked me what I would do if I could do anything I wanted - money aside. I said: "fly planes and own horses". This is completely true...but do I need planes and horses to be happy? Most certainly not. I don't think that "things" make us happy in the long run, and most of the people in my life seem to share this belief. Happiness is the most simply complex thing that I can think of...well, that and love...but that's another post for another time...
You'd be surprised at how easy one can "forget" city life and grow used to smaller towns. It is, in fact, liberating.
ReplyDeleteThe only collateral is that upon an eventual return to the big city you'll feel like the proverbial fish in a big pond. You'll fail to understand how you could ever cope with the big city chaos and you'll want out ASAP.
At least that's my experience.
Anyway. Congrats on the job and your slice of sky. Keep on planning, you'll know when the right time comes!!!